It still hasn’t hit me. It has not sunk in. Moving to WIsconsin? Am I crazy? Some friends have been asking if I’m scared of the fact I’m going out there alone, no friends, no family. Not really, just excited. Life is an adventure, and this makes life that much more adventurous. My mom’s is gonna take it the hardest. I know this won’t be easy for her, letting go of her baby boy. None of this will be easy for me either. In a sense it’s like going to Walla Walla for the first time. I knew virtually no one except my roommate. Totally different part of the country. Unfamiliar grounds. The main difference is that how long I’ll be in Wisconsin is indefinite. It’s going to be difficult not being able to see my parents, my sister and her family, my friends, as often. It may be a long time before I see anyone again. All I can bet on is if they have me fly to a nearby city in SoCal.

With all that aside, I am so thankful for this opportunity. I am also in disbelief that I got the position. Praise God. I first applied January 30th. I got a job offer April 22nd. Three interviews and almost three months later, my life has taken a whole new direction. The wait has been nerve-wracking. In the third round of interviews, I was told I was 1 of 12 applicants. So many moments of doubt. But here I am, sitting, wondering if this really just happened. I’ll need the courage and strength to trail blaze this new path. I’m gonna miss everybody.

There’s something about getting an unexpected phone call from someone I haven’t spoken to in what feels like ages. It’s refreshing. For a while I’ve felt like I’ve been putting a lot of effort to keep in touch with friends, whether close ones or less familiar ones. It’s draining. But I think a lot of us are at that point in life where everybody kinda starts doing their own thing and hang out together less often. And for all I know, they probably think the same about me. Totally understandable, can’t blame anyone. Nonetheless, it feels really nice that someone out there thought about me enough to give me a call.

Today, I press the reset button. Life is too short and too wonderful to not be happy about it.

What a start to a new year. Holy crap! These past few weeks have proven to be a new chapter in life, but of course not without its challenges and struggles. It’s definitely an eye-opener. I can’t wait for what else this year has in store for me. The only constant in life is change. It is built into our nature. And based on the past, I seem to thrive on change, on the unpredictable. Past experiences give a better foothold for things to come. Learning from our mistakes, striving for the best we can be. When we become too comfortable, when we settle for anything less than happiness; this is our downfall. If I can keep this in mind, I can push myself beyond my comfort zone, push myself to take on life’s next adventure. God, please help me to be courageous. To be patient. To be kind and loving. I can’t do this own my own. I feel weak. And alone. I feel like the odds are stacked against me, but I know with proper guidance and enough patience and perseverance, I can make it. I can, and I will.

Bitter Sweet Symphony